i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) - e.e. cummings
My husband David Holmes, born in Plymouth, England; died February 10, 2015 in Amsterdam, Netherlands. I am so thankful for 15 amazing years together.
Dear Tara, I am sad and sorry beyond words. My condolence. Please feel free to contact me whenever you want. All my love, Nina
Posted by: Nina Aziz | 13 March 2015 at 14:28
Thinking about you.
Posted by: Vicki in MIchigan | 11 March 2015 at 16:57
I am sorry, ever so sorry for your loss. You had those fifteen years together. What a wonderful memory to hold onto. My thoughts are with you and his family.
Posted by: A Cuban In London | 10 March 2015 at 21:28
Tara... obviously it has been some time since I visited your blog and today I see the sad news you reported a month ago. My sympathies and healing thoughts to you and your family. I hope you are still having loved ones surround you as you walk through this part of your journey. Grace and Strength to you from Alberta.. Trish
Posted by: Trish Lansdell-Denholm | 10 March 2015 at 18:00
Oh, Tara!
I'm so sorry.
Love,
Chris
Posted by: Chris | 05 March 2015 at 01:21
I am so sorry, Tara. You'll see him again someday.
Posted by: YvonneNavarro | 02 March 2015 at 19:56
Tara, I am broken hearted for you. Hugs and much love.
Posted by: Michelle French | 25 February 2015 at 04:24
Just saw this. So sorry for your loss. I hope you are surrounded by friends and family in this sad time.
Posted by: ragazza | 24 February 2015 at 17:59
Dear Tara, so beautiful words, because you carry him in your heart as well, you will always be together. It is not a consolation it is a truth even if it hurts
Send you Love and a big hug sweet Tara
Posted by: Catalina | 24 February 2015 at 10:50
Thinking about you. Sending good vibes.
Posted by: Vicki in MIchigan | 24 February 2015 at 00:43
Dearest Tara,
my deepest, heartfelt condolences.
Warmest embrace,
Merisi
Posted by: Merisi | 22 February 2015 at 12:00
Oh Tara! I am so saddened, so very sorry for his loss, for you and all who loved him. Your love is so apparent in this lovely tribute - in everything you've shared about David. I believe that love endures and transcends far beyond what we can know...I wish I had better words to bring you some small comfort, but I pray God will bless you, comfort and support you in the days ahead. Sending much love your way. xo
Posted by: Terri | 22 February 2015 at 10:35
I am so very sorry to hear of your deep loss, Tara. Wishing you comfort and a sense of peace, if this is possible at such a time. Sending you much love.
Posted by: Kay | 21 February 2015 at 06:56
Dearest Tara, I don't have words to soften the heartache or take away the pain of your terrible loss. You, and David, have been in my thoughts and remain so - I'm so broken for you now as I read this. May you be wrapped in love as you travel these days. xxxx
Posted by: Carina | 19 February 2015 at 19:31
I am so very sorry. He will be forever in your heart. And Auden's words...they say so much. Heartfelt sympathy from across the sea.
Posted by: Jacky Petrie | 19 February 2015 at 17:24
Oh, Tara, no. I am sorry, so sorry to hear it. So sorry. Those aren't words enough, I know. But, I am sorry and I am thinking and praying for you. Sending you love, my friend.
Posted by: Relyn | 18 February 2015 at 03:41
Tara darling,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful and loving tribute to David. Doug and I are so sorry to hear of your loss. David was a thoughtful, kind and loving man, and he'll be greatly missed by all of us who knew him. Although brief, we greatly treasure the time we shared with you both.
Sending you and your family lots of love and comfort.
Posted by: Brenda Walton | 17 February 2015 at 21:29
Dear Tara, I am so very sorry for your loss. I will continue to keep you in my good thoughts during this difficult time. Please take care of yourself. xo abcd
Posted by: ABCDragoo | 17 February 2015 at 02:01
Oh, Wow! Words fail me when I think of all you have on your shoulders just now. And how lucky you are to have had those 15 years. I hope it inspires you to push on as I think it has sustained you in the past. Thank you for including me in your life in this way and with your thoughts and wonderful photographs. Lovingly, Rick P.
Posted by: Rick Peerboom | 17 February 2015 at 01:06
Dearest Tara, that was so beautiful, brought tears out of my aching heart for you and your loss. So much love, I am here for you always. Love love love you, Vanessa
Posted by: Vanessa | 16 February 2015 at 23:07
Oh, Tara,
I am so sorry for loss. My heart hurts for you. We both know there are no words that will help. But please know that I am thinking of you and sending love.
Posted by: Maureen | 16 February 2015 at 22:46
So sorry to hear that Tara. My heart goes out to you. I wish you lots of strength in these difficult days. Love and a big hug marja
Posted by: marja | 16 February 2015 at 11:02
A lovely, straightforward, generous eulogy. Be well.
Posted by: Limner | 16 February 2015 at 04:26
Tara - sorry to hear this sad news. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Much love XO
Posted by: Megan | 16 February 2015 at 00:42
Dearest Tara,
My vocabulary is too simple-I don't know any words that will ease the pain of your loss.I have nothing to share with the woman who has shared so much with us. I offer my tears, to mingle with others, as a small tribute to a man who shared his world with you, Tara.
xoxo,
Mary H.
Posted by: Mary H. | 15 February 2015 at 18:54
Dearest Tara, I am so very, very sorry. Words seem trite at a moment like this. I can only offer you my presence and my love, and my understanding. Courage, ma brave.
Colette xoxo
Posted by: Colette | 15 February 2015 at 17:15
Dear Tara, I send you my love and sympathy at this time of your sadness and loss.
The words about carrying his love in your heart forever, goes so deep. The beautiful connection you shared will not be lost. "In Joy we come, in Joy we live and have our being, and in that Sacred Joy we will melt again." Blessings and love to your dear beloved and to you. Carole
Posted by: Carole Mayne | 15 February 2015 at 15:47
My dearest Tara I am so very sorry to hear about David's passing. Please accept my love and prayers and deepest sympathy.
Love and blessings
Jeanne
Posted by: Jeanne | 15 February 2015 at 13:58
I am so sorry. I have no words...
Posted by: Jo | 15 February 2015 at 10:31
My dear Tara,
How I wish I knew the words to take away a tiny bit of your pain at least. Don't let anyone tell you that things will get better. They won't. They will get different but never better. I know the road you are walking all too well as you know and although in the future there will be moments of peace allow yourself to feel,that is all that is important right now.
I too took refuge in poetry when half of my life was taken away, and allowed someone else to say the words I could not find to reflect what I feel.
"...He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever:
I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good."
W. H. Auden
I am here, as always, rest and remember what Nana said: a good memory always remembers just the good things. You and David have many good things for you to remember, so hold on to those while everything around you finds its own place. I wish that we were closer, and in a real sense, we are.
Allegra
Posted by: Allegra Smith | 15 February 2015 at 02:59
My dear, Tara,
When I heard David had passed it took my breath away. The words are precious, but that photo just speaks volumes. He was a special man and Jim and I feel so blessed to have spent one wonderful evening in your home in Paris with that delicious meal David cooked. The conversation and friendship of the time we spent together is the most special part of that trip. Words don't adequately express the sorrow you must be feeling. Sending love and hugs as you walk this journey. My thoughts will be traveling with you.
xoxo Marilyn and Jim too!
Posted by: Marilyn | 15 February 2015 at 00:24
oh dear sweet friend, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart to your heart...I will pass on to you the best advice given to me when my son died...cry till you quit, grieve anyway you have to and tell anyone who tells you different to go to hell...be gentle with your self and do what ever you have to in order to make it to the next breath...love you lots!
Posted by: Leau | 14 February 2015 at 18:37
Dear Tara;
So sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. Not unexpected but still this takes away a huge part of your soul. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Sebastian
Posted by: Sebastian Veldhuizen | 14 February 2015 at 18:24
I am so, so sorry.
I have loved this poem since I first read it. I hope the images it conveys can contain a modicum of comfort at a devastating time.
Sending sympathy and hugs.
Posted by: Vicki in Michigan | 14 February 2015 at 14:58
Oh Tara, I'm not sure what I can say here that I haven't said before to you in our off-blog correspondence, other that I am so deeply saddened and sorry for your loss and for the loss that all who knew and loved David are experiencing. Rick and I feel privileged to have met him, to have heard his wonderful stories, to have experienced his laugh and his warm smile. These are the experiences that will keep this man of great life forever alive in our hearts.
The poem is without doubt the most perfect expression of love I have ever read. You chose a fine one. But all the more so, this wonderful, perfect photo. A treasure.
Big hugs, and lots of love, wrapping across an ocean to help heal.
Posted by: jeanie | 14 February 2015 at 14:29